Got a heartbreaking call from a very sad girl who missed her mommy.
Talk about trying to find balance in the world. Everything can make sense in your mind until you get a call from your little girl who misses you.....
And just like that, nothing makes sense.
I am doing my best to hyperfocus on my goals and dreams so I can better support my family. I have schedules set, kids taken care of, classes picked out and I am in full swing. At the time I got the phone call, I was leaving a photographers showcase. It was my first available minute of the day to receive a phone call.
At the time, I was in a heated discussion about tools to put into play for the upcoming months. Ideas were rolling, and motivation firing.......
And then in a heartbeat, I am standing in the middle of a smoke filled casino, frozen in my spot trying to connect with a little pret teen heart that missed her mom.
In one fell-swoop, I am left standing, listening to a little voice, wondering what brought me to this place so far away from home.
It is humbling to be a mother. I live my every day giving to and making choices for my kids.
This trip is about my kids as much as it is about myself. And I have to remind myself of that as I am standing in the casino, with tiny cracks forming in my heart.
I can do this.
I get through the phone call and promptly yell at my husband for letting it happen. He knows as well as I do that I am here for a reason. He is my support system. He knows this was a hard phone call.
No one said motherhood was easy. It is a constant balance of making tough decisions on a daily basis. Some are less popular than others. But they necessary. I think I just need to make a few more calls along the way.
Happy Monday
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